I don't want to write, because I don't want to do the deep thinking and the digging that requires right now.
Part of me feels badly about that, and part of me thinks it's okay to give myself a break.
But then it kind of feels like i'm giving myself a break from a chance to grow, and that feels icky.
Anyhoo, my parents are here, and i'm just going to focus on being present during this time with my family.
Enjoy your time together!! I'm sure you all have been looking forward to this for a long time! :)
ReplyDeleteI can relate to that feeling for sure. <3 It's hard not to feel guilty for not wanting to let yourself think too much..but I think it's okay. It's OK not to feel guilty for letting life swallow you up for a little bit, because sometimes that is the best thing you can do..is allow time to do its work & pick it up again when you're ready. I've realized lately that growing happens even when you aren't digging around or watering it-so to speak. Actually..sometimes when you let it go for awhile, that's when the roots go deeper.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, soooooooo glad your parents are there, I know I wish I was. I love YOU!
It's ok to take a break...I'm doing such a thing too while we are here visiting you...I don't feel badly about it...not writing or you not writing...take a break and enjoy the "ride". It's great being here with you...to see you live day to day...it's been like forever and I want to enjoy the time while we can. love you...thanks for letting us be with you.
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