wanderlust.

that word describes me to the core right now.  which... is incredibly selfish of me considering we just returned from an incredible adventure in new orleans.  but it is the truth.  it's a word i picked out of this month's email from anthro, which yes, i subscribe to.  call me obsessed, it would be true, but nonetheless i love to see inside the thoughts they share with me on my computer screen regularly.  this month was spot-on, like they could read the thoughts that consume my brain 24 hours a day.  this is a blurb from the email:

"...for months we've been dog-earring travel magazines and feverishly reading adventurist blogs with a twinge of envy particularly when descriptions and photos speak of lush palms, pulsating culture & icey cocktails..." 

i have been working a ton of hours these days- something like 51+ last week- all in the name of a particular vacation we are coveting in our future.

it's nice to put energy into saving money.

it's nice to know that i can.  it's a definite struggle of mine- this whole saying "no" to myself thing. 

it's nice to have goals! having goals- being able to pinpoint & know exactly what i want, is a real struggle for me.  i envy people that know exactly what they want to do with their life. & on the same note- watching people who know what they want & won't help themselves get from point A to point B is a huge pet peeve of mine- because i'd give so much to know what i want to do like they do.  i'm not one of those people that has a burning passion for this or that or someone that has been granted some kind of vision as to what i should do beyond what i'm doing currently.  not a clue. 

anyway a vacation might seem like a vain thing to have as a goal, but it's not like other goals we've set in the past. we're actually putting action into it & it's really satisfying. 

& if you catch me day-dreaming. you can bet i'm thinking of this place.