the clouds looked like they'd been whipped into a frenzy by a blender. like mashed potatoes. the sun setting- lighting up the earth like a pink lightbulb hanging from the sky- giving everything that warm rosy glow. driving over the bridge, knowing this is not just your average sunset. feeling elevated into this magic sky, my heart feeling bigger. lucky to be alive in this moment, in this exact place. wish i had my camera.
love the conversations that are like a reset button for my head. like the state of mind after a vacation & you feel like you can take on the world again. sometimes it starts out hard because they come from such a deep place. it takes awhile to pull it all the way out. it's raw. rough around the edges. but then it's out- hanging heavy in the air. & you can either take a step backward or a step forward. & when it's the latter- it's a breath of fresh air.
7.25.2009
hilton head island, sc
zane totally told me to take off my skirt (i had shorts on underneath) b/c he was afraid it would get caught... which it did. & i had to stop & this beach-goer had to rescue me b/c zane didn't know i'd stopped. & i totally had to tell him he'd been right when i caught up to him skirt-less. =)
biking around the island- it was paradise to feel the wind in my hair- something i have just been craving. we stumbled onto this cool park & proceeded to make out like teenagers. hey- we're entitled- it's our anniversary & nobody saw us (Mom!) we made important stops for things like new shades (see above) & raspberry lemonade italian ices - (to die for) & of course to feel the atlantic ocean- (it was 85-degrees!!!!) too bad it didn't get past my knee's before zane spotted a sting-ray ...then i chickened out... it was one of those days where you fall into bed exhausted for all the right reasons & it feels sooo good to feel zapped because you've ridden beneath the sunshine all day. our largest problem in 48-hours was that we only had a disposable camera. really hard to complain.day #2
we got even closer than this- but i ran out of film- darn.
our sweet guide
el grupo
it was an early, perfect celebration of the past three-years we've spent being mr. & mrs. hard to top kayaking with dolphins in tropical rain... i mean seriously.7.19.2009
239.36
miles from home. somewhere inside the southeast corner of sweet south carolina. we came across this place 40-odd days ago & vowed to come back so here we are, loving us some 'us' time! my sister-in-laws & their hubbies have led by example when it comes to the importance of these "weekend get-aways." these past 3-years zane & i have done a lot more talking about going away, then actually making it a priority... so we're catching up. we always thought it was foolishness or selfish to be thinking about "vacationing" when we live in such a beautiful vacation spot. but we've seen the light about leaving behind the dirty house- the moldy cabinents that smell- the kitchen remodel that we may or may not be taking on that is way overwhelming (in a house that isn't even ours no less!)- the job search- the job itself- whatever it is that can just bog a person down on a daily basis. it's been sooo worth the anxiety to ask the bosses for the time off & we are coming to see that it is an investment in ourselves... rather than seeing it as spending money that we should be saving. thanks ash & dani for the push!
YES!!!!
well it's been confirmed. we can stay in flagler beach for much longer now. we have found los dos potrillos. the little hole-in-the-wall restaurante mexicana that prepares the tacos y tortas that we have been craving from the taco truck(s) in pasco. life is all good.
7.17.2009
it's all good
is it as disappointing to you as it is to me, to wake up somedays & be rudely reminded of just how human you still are? something as simple as an early morning call from work & BAM! tempers flare. it feels frustrating to be controlled by my own weaknesses. not that i go to bed so much thinking that i will wake up immune to the unpredictibility of life- just that it feels like a step backward instead of a step of growth & first thing in the morning, no less. to discover my temper fully in tact was not the fresh start i had in mind.
i asked zane to join me for a run as he was about to step in the shower. he knew i was steamed- so he doesn't even protest.
rolled out the door at 6:09a.m. bedhead hair, morning breath & all- i see the neighbor's clock as we pass their window on the way down. the sun hadn't risen yet. i threw myself into the run, feeling like i don't have time to pace myself- just feeling this need to shake the negative energy flowing thru my veins pronto. the intended goal is to run long enough to feel like life isn't running me instead of vice versa.
we ran in silence into silence except for the buzz of the bugs that are a constant chorus in the background of this place we call home. i push, wanting my body to push back. faster- harder- until my lungs are screaming at me. for once i'm keeping pace with zane- down to 17th- up to A1A along the ocean. spying splashes of pink peek from behind clouds hanging above the water- hearing the waves crash- they sound loud against the silence of the morning. i love that this sound overpowers any other sound unlike during mid-day.
still pushing & wearing down, zane's leading now & i have to drag myself up our two-flights of stairs embracing the exhaustion that overtakes the frustration. taking my water to the patio to watch the world fill up with light or at least as far as my eyes can see. focus on my own breath. feeling it turn from heated to cool, heavy to normal. feeling the calm from it's repetition & pattern. thinking of each breath as an invitation to wellness & balance. sweet words to ponder from my latest issue of body & soul. a kiss goodbye from the man i love. he promises to see me in an hour. i stay sitting, soaking up the quietness until the breeze begins to feel cool on my skin again. i come into the house to discover a voicemail from zane. he knew that i'd find it when i came in. just called to say that he loved me "that's all" -smiling because that's my everything.
i asked zane to join me for a run as he was about to step in the shower. he knew i was steamed- so he doesn't even protest.
rolled out the door at 6:09a.m. bedhead hair, morning breath & all- i see the neighbor's clock as we pass their window on the way down. the sun hadn't risen yet. i threw myself into the run, feeling like i don't have time to pace myself- just feeling this need to shake the negative energy flowing thru my veins pronto. the intended goal is to run long enough to feel like life isn't running me instead of vice versa.
we ran in silence into silence except for the buzz of the bugs that are a constant chorus in the background of this place we call home. i push, wanting my body to push back. faster- harder- until my lungs are screaming at me. for once i'm keeping pace with zane- down to 17th- up to A1A along the ocean. spying splashes of pink peek from behind clouds hanging above the water- hearing the waves crash- they sound loud against the silence of the morning. i love that this sound overpowers any other sound unlike during mid-day.
still pushing & wearing down, zane's leading now & i have to drag myself up our two-flights of stairs embracing the exhaustion that overtakes the frustration. taking my water to the patio to watch the world fill up with light or at least as far as my eyes can see. focus on my own breath. feeling it turn from heated to cool, heavy to normal. feeling the calm from it's repetition & pattern. thinking of each breath as an invitation to wellness & balance. sweet words to ponder from my latest issue of body & soul. a kiss goodbye from the man i love. he promises to see me in an hour. i stay sitting, soaking up the quietness until the breeze begins to feel cool on my skin again. i come into the house to discover a voicemail from zane. he knew that i'd find it when i came in. just called to say that he loved me "that's all" -smiling because that's my everything.
fresh eyes
aw sweet sweet clarity; a gift- the best gift i can think of receiving at this moment.
clarity to reveal what matters most.
clarity to see what i need to say no to.
clarity to just focus on today, this hour, this minute- this moment.
clarity that faith really is enough.
clarity to reveal what i need to make time for & what i need to stop feeding.
clarity to see what i have been holding back & what i need to open my heart wider to.
clarity to remember again that a child simply accepts without questioning & that to be a child is the ultimate goal.
less thinking- more being- more loving- more being available to help another.
clarity to reveal what matters most.
clarity to see what i need to say no to.
clarity to just focus on today, this hour, this minute- this moment.
clarity that faith really is enough.
clarity to reveal what i need to make time for & what i need to stop feeding.
clarity to see what i have been holding back & what i need to open my heart wider to.
clarity to remember again that a child simply accepts without questioning & that to be a child is the ultimate goal.
less thinking- more being- more loving- more being available to help another.
7.16.2009
Sanford Zoo
was ecstatic to get permission to go to the zoo with evie this past friday & the day was perfected when zane got home early & joined us! we walked along winding "secret" viewing paths- met maude & martha the elephants - took a mini-train ride- ate a picnic lunch- got sweet relief from the heat at a splash park- watched monkeys play- watched an iguana eat- petted zebu's & goats & turkeys- smelled stinky kangaroo's & emu's- learned about all the poisnous snakes in florida- fun fun fun!
tidelands
Anna went to Louisiana for some job interviews & took Aidan with her so Evie & I had a couple days to hang out just the two of us. This was the first day- we spent the entire day at the pool, brought a picnic lunch & then walked along the intracoastal canal. Sweet sweet memories.
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