Last night we went to a going away party for our friends Michael & Shellie. Mike is a personal trainer at the gym we work at, Shellie is his wife. They have been "my people" here in Florida these past couple months & they are leaving me! Heading back to Missouri aka "Misery" as they call it where they are from, but there is more opportunities for them there & i totally get that.
We didn't know most of the people there. I'd met a couple of them here & there. All of them were a good 6-7 years older than Zane & i. why are we always the babies? (actually as i'm writing & thinking, i know the answer to that. we were the crazy ones that got married when we were teenagers & therefore it makes more sense to hang out with fellow married couples. but usually those married couples waited like normal people did til later in life, ha) & speaking of babies.... we were the only ones NOT in the baby club. there was this moment of clarity as i was looking around at each mommy or daddy who had a little one in their arms realizing that zane & i are so just not there yet. and i'm totally ok with that.
Zane played darts with the boys. It was good for him. It was a good get-out-of-his-comfort-zone experience. & he kicked tail too.
Hank Williams & Johnny Cash & Willie Nelson came streaming thru the speakers at different times. I knew Zane was loving the company of some fellow "country boys." We all sang along to "Mama's don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys...." so funny.
I got called "fun size little bit." & i have this weird feeling that it's going to stick. what do you say when people comment on your size... i mean really... its not like i put in this special request to only be 60 inches tall... and not a CENTIMETER more. whatever. truth be told. i like being short.
Lots & lots of tears were shed. Shellie told me that i was a liar & that i'd never come visit her & canoe with her in the ozarks. I told her she was going to eat her words when i call her from the airport & tell her to come pick my sorry butt up. We squeezed each other & felt the heaviness of goodbyes.
Then we danced to some pit bull & shook what our mama's gave us in the kitchen. everyone was impressed when zane started singing along to the spanish part of the lyrics. it was funny.
Sounds like you had a fun time and some people you're really gonna miss. Glad you felt good enough to go and relax and have a good time. Sometimes it's not that way, but just hang in there...it's bound to get better on this road to feeling better!
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